sucker for a sweet talker.

Trajectory

2006-09-19T18:03:00.000+08:00

"Would you like to..." ..I've never known the rest of that sentence. Ushered through the throngs, the masses, my brain protested but my mind did not, and then I wondered. The curiosity had been piqued; I wanted to be in control, not unlike you, who lagged behind as what you called your henchmen did the dirty work. Had they too, been captivated? It was uncanny, how you looked just like me, embarrassed, with that slight tinge of red spreading over your cheeks but that shrug separated you from the pack; you were in control.

Nonchalance.
To think you said I never knew how to blush. I didn't, the first time I got your name wrong. What was that then? Indifference.

Halfway across a full stop on the map, yet you were an hour and thirty minutes too far away from me. We never ventured outside of the safe ground, each not willing to show the first effort being made, both hesitant. The God of Persuasion came alive that day though, friends were badgered into making that trip down on my account that 'the coffee bean over there serves thicker drinks'. It felt just like a cliched scene from a movie, reaching over the wooden counter for a straw whilst someone I knew and overly eager babbled on. The only action I took though, was to look over her shoulder and say hello. And there it was. Right in the middle of sounds whizzing past at the speed of light and people at the speed of sound, with even her blending into the scenery, there you were, hello nonchalance. Through the grins that greeted me back at the table though, they must have seen me glow.

160 human-encrypted characters (no more, no less) were flying through GSM networks, waiting to be decoded. "How 'bout a chocolate buffet?" would most likely spawn the chain of thoughts: 'Does she mean the place we talked about previously? Or that I'm supposed to suggest something entirely new? What if.." Needless to say, that race of thoughts is a mere number on a list that hasn't ever been vocalized for the sole sake of not hearing disbelieving laughter and a calculated classic phrase of how that differentiates me from a guy.

Slow down..you're moving too fast. You might as well have said stop and smell the flowers - which incidentally, you and I could never stand the scent of - because I've never learnt. The me writing this today, has the roots of the person you had moulded, shaped, and done it all with soft hands and a firm touch. You give me much more credit than what I deserve, than what I'm worth, than what I'd ever admit to. Us was just what we were, mucking about with instincts, jibes, and the ability to put thinking aside, till you succumbed to your ways, your good ways. It is just like how Kurt Cobain tells it: A Denial! A Denial! Your rejection, a first, your second rejection, a first, your leaving, a first. Stuck in limbo and you were the one who took the plunge.

A denial
These (few of the many) fragments of thoughts/recollections are like multitudes of trains hurtling through points, points; each diverted route taken doubles the number of different outcomes possible, till you wonder if that something has ever taken place. These are classified under the section of Denial, Wishful Thinking, and Regret until overcrowding seems imminent. The signs are obvious, at least to me, like a trajectory of where we laughed, where you stumbled, where you slipped your hand in mine..
Sleep comes as a respite these days, when all I can think of is I don't know how I got this way - It's so god-damned annoying, to say the least. But even respite doesn't come easy, and 15grams of a certain substance would mean I'm a dead (wo)man, hence the reliving of the above blurb, to ease up on the grey matter, with just one word attached to it - indifference.

Nocturne

2006-09-17T18:24:00.000+08:00

I just pulled another all nighter! The nanny says she hates it when I do such things, especially when it's not for studies. But there's a big footie match tonight.. =p

Never bend and fold

2006-09-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Hey, this is for you, 'cause I know..

Where do we go from here?
The words are coming out all weird
Where are you now when I need you?
Alone on an aeroplane
Falling asleep against the window pane
My blood will thicken

Download: Radiohead - The Bends.

New York, New York

2006-09-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

Howdy!

~~Taipei, Taiwan - this Wednesday to Saturday.~~ Driving+repairs instead. Tell me, am I being stupid?

New York - 16th - 25th ++ Sept. (I ~~need~~ want a travelling companion!)

Tentative.

Edit 1 : Crikey, a stingray's gotten the crocodile hunter! And suddenly, everyone professes to be a fan of Steve Irwin. Worst thing bout dying is always always the kids.

Edit 2: Am I missing something here? Open up the contact list and.. HAHAHHAHHAHA why do they all have turtles in their nicknames??

Edit 3: Apparently it's a tribute of some sorts to Steve Irwin. Bet he's turning in his grave right now.

Hostess needed

2006-08-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

I'm looking for a web hosting with good uptime, at least a coupla GB storage space, additional domains/subdomains, good monthly transfer bandwidth, and i'm easy on the databases.
Recommendations?

Public service announcement

2006-08-21T00:33:00.000+08:00

Update: 30th Aug

It's now almost 7am, I have no idea why I'm up although my head is swimming but I realize my comp quit twice on me last night. edit: spot the errors! and hc says she wants to grind baby's head =(

Update: 25th Aug

Four, and then there were two hungry ones. And the Colgate tasting peppermint drink didn't help all that much. Have a good flight, swei! See you in 6 months! (or a year?)

The HolyDays are finally here, albeit undeservingly - and I can finally readjust to keep from nodding off at noon. Also, a Thank You to all for the encouragement, morning calls, comforting words like "hahaha! I don't have exams!" and a prayer (!), though negated by the fact that it came right after my last paper..I do need divine intervention. All the best to the A-level muggers and remember, doing 9 questions per day isn't really being productive. Chreestina, so sorry but..work hard!

Pulling an all-nighter right now, the first of several to come.. Spelling (and english in general?) is going down the drain (thank you firefox extention spellcheck - i can't be arsed to tyep proeperly beacuase of you)

My shirt is soaked with perspiration AGAIN?? Oh for crying out loud.. Anyway, usual sporadic updates will continue..

Fae, photos please!

This is where I hesitate..

2006-08-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

An adapation, based loosely on the L Word storyline so far. Count 1 point for each point you score, then multiply the figure by two (there are 50 items), to get your depravity percentage.

Cheated on the man you were with.
Cheated on the man you were going to marry.
Cheated on the man you were going to marry — with a woman. (i.e. Jenny-Marina)
Cheated on the woman you were with.
Cheated on the woman you were going to marry. (i.e. Dana-Tonya-Alice)
Cheated on the woman you were with, with another woman you used to be with.
Touched the woman next to you while watching opera (okay, substitute this for a movie, or any other public activity).
Dated a lesbian-identified man.
Had your vagina rejuvenated.
Checked out a girl and glanced at her fingernails, as if to determine that she’s gay.
Gone back to an ex that treated you badly. (Alice-Gabby)
Kept a shrine for an ex.
Made out in the girls’ toilet with someone else, while your boyfriend/girlfriend is outside. (Dana-Alice, Jenny-Marina)
Female ejaculated on your first date.
Found your mother on That Chart, connected to you.
Promised never to go back to That Woman again, to keep your relationship, but you do.
Fucked a man (when you are a woman) with a strap on.
Had stealthy sex in a room full of people you thought were sleeping.
Had the woman you love stumble upon a picture of you in bed with someone else.
Slept with a vampire. Or a vampirologist.
Had marathon sex, like 3 days straight over a weekend.
Came “9000 times”.
Been in an open relationship, with an arragement.
Left your boyfriend/girlfriend for someone else, only to find that person you left for, has someone else too and is leaving you for her/him.
Left your girlfriend for your best friend, only to find out your girlfriend was going to leave you for someone else too.
Had everyone but your parents, know the truth.
Brought your 16 year old brother to a gay pride parade.
Been at the same table with your girlfriend, and your ex, or lover, at the same time.
Talked brazenly about your “just fucked look” to your husband/boyfriend/girlfriend, when it was in fact what it was. (Cherie)
Got it on.. behind bars.
Had your ex attempt suicide.
Fucked someone else all night, then told your girlfriend she was the love of your life. (paraphrasing Tina, c.f. Bette-Candace-Tina)
Thrown a boxful of “toys” at your ex in a public place, with her new love present.
Gotten a lap dance.
Lusted for/slept with your professor. (i.e. Jenny, Bette)
Recorded other people in intimate settings.
Shopped for sex toys with your partner.
Had your toys peered at by immigration, as your bag goes through the Xray machine.
Gone after a woman old enough to be your mother. Or grandmother.
‘Stray’ed online, while in the midst of a long term R.
Bisexual speed-dated.
Set yourself on a straight girl.
Been an hemming and hawing straight girl, esp. an attached one, wanting your cake and eat it too.
Had your girlfriend read out the meaning of Monogamy to you from the dictionary. (Does not have to be literal!)
Psychotically responded to jealousy. (i.e. Shane-Cherie-Carmen, acting on jealousy by sleeping with someone else)
Suffered Lesbian Bed Death.
Been hit on by people in positions of power. (i.e. Bette-Senator Grisham)
Can’t stop talking about your ex to everyone, even new people you’re seeing.
Had a life-sized cutout of your ex.
You’re not a goldstar.

*glances at title* uhhuhm... my score.. *loosens collar* Thank god for the men-related questions =p (NOTE TO SELF: YOU WILL REGRET POSTING THIS, DIE NOW!!!) I blame this on the fact that I have 3 days/nights to study for, uh, four papers.

Q&A

2006-07-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

update, Aug 15:

Pathetic fallacy, my ass. There's magic in the rain. Swear it!

Ask me anything. Through any form of communication you have with me; just quote this post. Seriously! I'll answer every one of them.
*Terms and Conditions apply

That should cover up the fact that I can't be arsed with updating anymore =)

* Limited to 2 questions per person.

My Candy's missing!

2006-07-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

My hairdresser RESIGNED!!! (insert panicky expression here) she's the only one I'd trust with my hair, and I don't even have her number =( It's all my fault though, but that's another story..
I'd decided to get my hair cut on a whim; obvious I never make reservations for anything innit? To cut a long story short, it was a harrowing experience. Apologies in advance if I get too verbose - brynn always is =p - but my thoughts are a little repetitive 'cause I'm on a combination of Xanax and Frisium. Doctors are pretty nice these days.

Anyway, the name of the salon was called "coslab" in short for cosmetic laboratories. I went for it because it sounded Japanese, and I had a craving for sushi.

Took a seat. Crammed quarters, floor was covered with a layer of hair. Gee, don't you guys ever clean up?
Shampoo lady started on working to get muck off my hair. There's shampoo in my ear. She attempts to squeeze it out. (I kid you not) Succeeds in getting even more of it in there. I feel a first hint of fear =(
I'm at the wash basin. Hallelujah, the shampoo is out of my ear! It is replaced by water. The back portion of my shirt is soaked. I envision myself at a desert to keep from snarling.
Back at my seat. I take the liberty of towelling my hair on my own. Hairdresser arrives, and proceeds to comb and cut my wet hair, but not before using a clip every other ten strands. And oh, the last I recall, my hair was short.

Me: Just give it a trim but keep the sides please.
Him: Okay. (Proceeds to snip them away anyway)
Me: Could you use the layering scissors only please?
Him: Sure.. (takes up a normal pair and snips it straight across)
Me: *halp!*

And as I recall, other panicked requests include:

"Oh no please don't cut that, it's supposed to kept"
"Err wait! You missed out this part! It's longer than the rest, see?" "Oh, yah.."
"Yes, I want my sideburns."

Unclip. Measure. Comb. Snip. Clip. Lather, Rinse, Repeat. And he was finally done!
"So ni yao shen me? Wasx, Mitt or gel?" Oh dear. Undecided, I took a bit of oily gloop, ran it through my hair, paid up and got the hell out with strands of hair stuck to my shirt.
Aftermath: It actually looks fine when you turn a blind eye to the uneven parts. All thanks to the magical layering scissors! Now I'm gonna try a little self service..

/end of nonsense. (that should have been on vastitas anyway)

You can start reading now!

I'll be going to E.'s for the live telecasting of the World Cup's third placing play-offs. She claims to have brownies and ice cream, which was the mitigating factor for me =) See if I can spot any more hidden tattoos on her this time! And oh, bet's on Germany to win.

To E.

2006-07-04T16:37:00.000+08:00

I know your well's getting a little dry, but didja know something? There's magic in the rain. (P.S. I smell it too.)

There she goes

2006-06-26T17:54:00.000+08:00

My newest lecturer is so... caliente.

In a different kinda way, you're yeah, that.

But because some obscure rule of thumb says one shouldn't be so talkative,
I've got a ~~black&blue~~ big ass angry red (!) bruise and a mozzie bite right on the same spot! Now how much more wicked can it possibly get?

Free Loop

2006-06-26T02:39:00.000+08:00

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I won't see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I need some kind of lazy day
I've been fabulous through to find my tattered name
I'll be stewed tomorrow if I don't leave us both the same
I don't know enough, I get some kind of lazy day

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You could leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
And I don't know enough, I need sun when it leaves the day

Cause it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found only time will tell and I will figure out
That we can baby, we can do the one night stand
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin, right near the fire
That we can baby we can change and feel alright

Read. Listen. Infer. Interpret. Hmm..

Talk about eviction by choice

2006-06-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

Me: The past few days have been great. Once you all walked in the door I felt my head cramping. Lack of oxygen, I think.

Dad: Nonsense. We left you for 4 days and the house is..

Mum: Eh she did her laundry and cleaned up too.

Me: Anyway, I can't wait to move out. Hehehehe.

Mum: Talk bout it when you get to uni.. two years more ok?

Me: Yeah, preferably in Changi. Or Australia. Or New Zealand. England and Canada sound good too..

Mum: *gives an appraising look* you're going to have to wash your own toilet.

Dad: And no more home-cooked meals.

Me: *scowls* I know!

By demand

2006-06-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

66 things that I love:
01. CDs
02. Hotate
03. Amaebi
04. Steaks of whichever animal nicely seasoned
05. Especially game (read: venison)
06. and Lamb chops with mint sauce
07. Smooth smokes
08. School uniforms in Crescent
09. Spontaneity
10. Look, alliteration!
11. Fixing stuff
12. Orange room lights
13. Being stoned and sedated during horrid movies
14. Playing the Game of Life with
15. the "family" + a pet giraffe
16. Reading - just about anything and everything
17. Especially newspapers, Readers Digest, National Geographic.. etc..
18. HC's sis' tiger striped beanbag
19. Beanies
20. Boon wearing glasses =p
21. Rain, especially thunderstorms
22. Comics
23. Chinese food
24. My awesome passwords
25. Bike rides
26. Milk, White and Nut chocolates
27. Clean beaches
28. Photography -
29. only when I'm on the right end of the camera *grumbles*
30. Macs (the technological one)
31. Testing out beta versions
32. Firefox
33. Customizing and tweaking just about anything
34. Ice cream (B&Js!)
35. Brownies
36. Travelling
37. Indie bands
38. A good cocktail
39. Adrianna =p
40. Fireworks in perfect sync with the music
41. Stars
42. Sunrise, sunset, skies
43. CK underwear (yes, the girl ones)
44. DIY hair dyeing
45. Thick striped polo tees
46. rumple!
47. Ludicrous acronyms
48. like
49. OGIES - Oh God, I Eat Shit and
50. PMS - Play MapleStory, Plant Mango Seeds, Piss on My Socks.. ...
51. Writing HTML & beginner javascript
52. Words, words and words
53. Getting the bass drum beats down perfect
54. Toddlers!
55. Choice quotes
56. i.e., "fat kids are harder to kidnap"
57. Good masseurs
58. which lead to good massages
59. Waking up with someone as a bolster =p
60. Hot chocolate
61. Eye catching advertisements
62. Road trips!
63. Airplanes
64. Wearing socks in bed
65. Lazylaces.com
66. Adrenaline rushes =)

16 things I hate
01. Bugs. Reptiles. Amphibians.
02. Weight obsessions, you girls..
03. Judgementals
04. Low serotonin levels =(
05. Drinking water
06. Spicy food.
07. Being early or late
08. Early classes
09. Not getting the morning paper
10. Runny yolks (yuck!)
11. Privacy invasions
12. Humidity
13. Flabby stomachs! =(
14. Misplacing things
15. Bad haircuts
16. Those who say one thing and mean another

I'm done! (I know I cheated some =p) Made it PG ; ) Thanks for making me think positively for this.. I realized I'm pretty much content anyway. It's barbie time!

Sixthsense, sixthseal, six feet under.

2006-06-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Today's date and time is 06/06/06 06:06:06.

I did sniff the air to see if there would be a faint smell of sulphur and brimstone 'cause 666 is widely reputed to be the devil's number. Well… apparently it doesn't work in this sense. Darn. =p
(All you religious fanatics, I'm just messing, I know where my beliefs lie. So shut it!)

Boon, Sher, I'll *grudgingly* do your 66&16 meme soon mmkay?

@ Liquid Kitchen

2006-06-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

One of the rare photos not stashed away 'cause I'm not facing the cam =p Lovely ambience, pity bout the food. Pool and the impromptu stay-over was awesome guys, can't wait for our getaway =)

Zoned

2006-06-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

Spaced out in the middle of a road crossing wondering what would happen if I did exactly that.
Almost snapped my stick in a fit during drums. (3000waystocastrateyoutwobastards)
Circled Basement 2 twice before remembering the right exit was on L1.
Crossed the same street thrice in a row.
Sat at a kerb, I don't know wtf for.
To top it all of, I'm bleeding.

Bad day. =(

Exhibitionism

2006-05-26T02:21:00.000+08:00

If every word in my blog breathes her name, you know we're just stepping out. But as the months pass, those entries get lesser. They get cryptic. Others think we're working our way through a rough patch, or that we're on the verge of a break-up.
The truth couldn't be further than that: I'm falling deeper. And as I fall, yes, for you, I get selfish. There's no reason to share us with them, there just isn't enough to go round. I'd want them all; every argument, every knowing smile, every tear shed, every jealous moment, every walk we take with our silhouettes stretching out under street lamps; I'd want them all.

My words won't ever rave about how great she is, or boost her ego on every other line. Neither would they spell the hesitation to hold her for the first time: for the fear of the intensity of it all, for the fear of failing (because after all, we'd never have an end if we didn't have a start)
But they tell a story of how much you mean to me, how special those minutes are when we share a quick drink before rushing off to class late for obvious reasons, and that flush of pride when I put an arm around your waist and grin: hey guys, meet my girl.

I've gotten that "you hardly blog about me/us anymore.." delivered to my ears a couple of times, a couple of years apart, and I guess the human in me (provoked by a catalyst) finally comes out to justify those actions.
Pardon the discrimination in usage of gender.

Totally kickass

2006-05-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

Do you have a perfect ass?

If your ass fits this formula,

(S+C) x (B+F)/T = V

Then you probably might have it. This formula calculates based on shape, bounce,
firmness and symmetry.

S is the overall shape or droopiness of the bottom,
C represents how spherical the buttocks are,
B measures muscular wobble or bounce,
while F records the firmness.

V is the hip to waist ratio, or symmetry of the bottom,
and T measures the skin texture and presence of cellulite.
perfect score - 80, kylie m.

Calculations for B and F could sure use some help from my hands ; )

One for the masses before I shut up

2006-05-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

Jot down 24 12 ~~weird~~ facts/things/habits about yourself then tag 6 other people.

1) I am CD purist. Well, sort of. (I can't believe RHCP just released a new 28 track album!)

2) Can't wait for our getaway! Can't wait to plan the next getaway on our getaway!

3) I can't wait to take a permanent vacation.. with my family and select friends hopefully.

4) I can never distinguish one european accent from another

5) My brother walks around in his underwear(read: briefs) sometimes. HC: Shhh!!

6) I curse Elliot Smith for (supposedly) committing suicide.

7) We could've been so much and more.

8) IRL, my parallel parking skillz aren't that 1334 (leet; elite). Click here for the game.

9) I think Angelina Jolie is butt ugly with a killer body.

10) I've got mail from the states!

11) I used to stream smoke out through my nose. Then I got scared I'd get nose cancer, so I decided to be normal. And yes, I realize the fucking stupidity of it.

12) I'm only doing this to tear my eyes away from the gruesome scenes of The Bone Collector.

To you, you and you

2006-05-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

I can't care because it's just not my place to.

On overdrive

2006-05-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

you're waiting for someone to put you together
you're waiting for someone to push you away
there's always another wound to discover
there's always something more you wish he'd say

he's everything you want
he's everything you need
he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
he says all the right things at exactly the right time
but he means nothing to you and you don't know why

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

These boots lectures are made for walking talking

2006-05-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

1315 - 1415 hours, GMT +8.

500 miles away from home

2006-05-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Ever gotten yourself caught in an LDR? Ever wondered what the boundaries were?
(this is where the marketing catchphrase comes in)
But seriously.

Having recently read a rule of thumb stating something to the effect of "if stated partner is more than 500 miles away, freedom gear shifts up."
This would never apply to me as there is only ONE! person i'd wholly trust to have an LDR with. Me without that trust would mean a nastily possessive me; and i believe that needs no explanations. Note: My gear remains where it is 500 miles or 5 meters away.

If your loins contain an unbearable itch, do yourself and the other party a huge favor by not revealing any details of a tryst. It is abso-fucking-lutely unacceptable if "guilt overwhelms you and you felt that a confession is needed". That instantly qualifies you as a selfish prick and your worth as a human being drops to that of a crushed gecko. You owe it to the other party a blissful ignorance because.. well yeah, ignorance is bliss. Above 500 miles apart? How hard can hiding it be?

If feelings fade however, honesty is the best policy.

It's a totally different ballgame for SDRs and it's one that's gonna need a mammoth effort just because.. you almost can't hide anything from girls eh FF?

p/s. forgive this incoherent shit but i just needed to get this out before it slips my mind and oooh.. my pupils are dilated..

The boys buzz like a thousand flies

2006-05-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

This kinda spoils the previous entry but.. title pretty much explains the change in pic!

I'll see you on Sunday

2006-05-05T13:43:00.000+08:00

We walked to the pool, chatting about the increased determination to do things right this time round. And how all those flow rate measurements turned out redundant. I wish the brick-path were a little more slippery so the journey would take a coupla minutes longer.

And there with a little side smile, "I'll see you on Sunday."

Nobody said it was easy, oh it's such a shame for us to part

2006-05-02T01:40:00.000+08:00

20 hours later..

~~Redang~~ : Rates are in SGD, getting there is an absolute hassle. Sorry YH!
Tioman : This is NOT off the list!! There are NO pests, NO tsunamis, NO monkeys pelting you with coconuts. Numero uno choice!
~~Bintan, Club Med & other resorts~~ : USD 15++ for a plate of chicken rice. 'Nuff said.
~~Maldives, Macau and Many-other-gambling-islands~~ : We might as well head to Madagascar eh?
Sentosa : WTFOMFG.
Genting : Two have been there recently?
Langkawi : Convenient travel bleed our pockets dry.

More to come~

In case of emergency:
Use bad-ass equation.
Sentosa = Tioman ------------ (1)
Mom, I'm going to camp at sentosa for 3 days! ---------- (2)
After stepping out of house, sub. (1) into (2).

p.s. - I kid.

Two finks.

1) Tentative details for the June getaway will be posted here soon! Sher-YH-Boonie-Jean: Studying is NOT a valid excuse. Cheers to HC!

2) From the title: COLDPLAY IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!! 10th July, one night only, in the indoor stadium (where else, nuts?) Anyyybodyyyyy up for it? *puppy eyes*

She....

2006-04-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

has the most brilliant twinkle ever.
more bout that later =)

edit: JD, E, i know this is a great contrast from the previous post, and i'm not out of that mood yet.. but will soon be. bottoms up!

Coming undone.

2006-04-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

I get thrown in deep funks occasionally. I'm thinking tri-yearly, but it just might be closer to quarter-yearly. Tonight marks the onset of one such occasion, and also the most honest blog entry to date.
godknows, I've never been entirely honest to any one in my life. I wonder if it's the devil's payback for almost all of the days where everything that tries to pull me down just bounces off my shield, of which, i am extremely grateful for. much as i'd like to, my body doesn't seem to be able to produce enough happy chemicals to get me out of these ruts but oh you don't have to read on, i'm just rambling for my sake.
psychology class has served as a confirmation for what i've always believed in: let him who is without sin cast the first stone. it irks me, to be given the once over, to be appraised with cynicism just ten seconds after stepping into your line of sight, to be approached with caution as though i might spit in your face any moment, the list goes on.

le condemnant quod non intellegunt; they condemn because they do not understand.

I am afraid of death. Yes, that alone keeps me from intentionally stepping in front of a speeding vehicle every time a false sense of bravado invades my senses. My mind has never truly gone into a state of total inebriation. It's always aware, aware not of whether you are wearing mismatched socks, but aware of my consequences resulting from my actions. I can not abscond from the blame.

Tonight, I sit with a russian 80% proof liquid from my dad's hey days, and a pack of cancer sticks. The weed is gone. (can't be arsed with euphemisms) Have no worries bean, Singapore is too stringent for the likes of me. Instead I hold in my hand sheets of mathematics and soldier up for yet another battle. Here now, shrouded with oppressing voices and rattling skeletons, yes! I am truly alone and grinning and bearing it, literally, seems to be the way to go if I am to be on my best behavior for LittleMissApples' steamboat on saturday.

ps. i'm quite aware this is on the WWW, but i'd like this to be somewhat of an open inner thoughts secret, if you know what i mean.

Just because.

2006-04-21T14:29:00.000+08:00

My ex is - somewhere in the states / somewhere in the states / not going to the states anymore =D / ~~at work, I presume.~~ oh, studying at home.
Kinda depends on who you're talking bout huh?

I love - adrenaline rushes. Especially how my knees quiver after an exhilarating thrill ride or a bungee jump.

I don't understand - religious wars. Tolerance and respect, is that too much to ask for?

I lose - my nerve when something witty is expected from me. Like how everyone at dinner has said their piece and when they turn to you for the finishing touch, something completely idiotic comes out instead. Like how a player scores the most unexpected touchdowns but fluffs the simplest but most critical conversion. Just great, I'm rambling..

People say I'm - weird. (really I'm not THAT weird) Honestly? I'd like to think I'm not bothered with the nitty gritty. Is there a term for that?

Love is - "something some people get or a glove that just never fit. For me it's just a pain in the ass. But I'm addicted to the taste of hoping it'd last." - adapted from limp bizkit, album results may vary. I just had to use it, so true innit?

Somewhere, someone is - flashing their bloated blubbery bellies on a nudist beach.

I will always - wonder why we have periods. Bloody hell. (Pun intended)

Forever is - under rated. Think about it, have you ever kept your promise on "forever"?

I never want to - walk in on people I know boinking.

I think the current US President - is a joke.

When I wake up in the morning - I stumble around clutching a huge pillow. Stop laughing!

My past was - a blur. My brain has an uncanny ability of doing that to me..

I get annoyed when - people take lighthearted moments seriously.

Parties are for - catching up and having a good laugh.

My dog is - no doubt extremely cross with me for not visiting for yonks.

My cat is - what cat?

Kisses are the best when - there's a bit of uncertainty in them =)

Tomorrow, - I go drumming!

I really want - to travel around the world.

I have low tolerance for people who - pass a whole load of ~~bullshit~~ unjustified comments on everyone else.

Missing In Action

2006-04-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, the few of you that still bother coming here. I'm gonna be semi-incommunicado for the next week or two. No apparent reason, I kinda feel like shutting off just a bit before school starts. Don't mind me if curt replies on msn come your way.. if I don't pick up the phone.. if messages go unreplied.. umm, all these applies to you as well, J.

And as always, there are two exceptions.

edit: nononono stop asking who J is. doesn't quite matter s'long as i don't i don't spring a gf up, aye?

Verbose

2006-04-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

"This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V. "

Goddamn, I look like a mushroom!

2006-04-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

I also seem to resemble a junkie. Or so it seems, to an assortment of people. (Joke: Not a food junkie, Zhi) The keyword happens to be "resemble", which by proxy, means that "tweaking"s of the previous post do not refer to drug usage in any form.
When the buddy comes back from NYC, I will haul her sorry jet lagged ass to sentosa, luge rides, and a nice tan. Drug usage is not condoned (just keep it under control) though, especially since Huai Bin of Sixthseal.com is one of my best reads. Sure hope it's going okay over there, mate.

HMM.. That seems to be something for a bonfire.. Unopened junk mail are such a hassle!

Got the exposure and focus right this time, real glad as my camera isn't what most people would fancy. *restrains from blabbing camera specs and wishes*

The bulbs in my overhead lamp are supposed fluorescent, but orange light seems to emit from it instead. Not that it's a bad thing, makes my room comfy.. and quite a few people can attest to that ; )

Enrolment exercises suck. We're expected to have an online kitty fight for a grand total of four places in a module. I managed to get psychology, ~~and am now gunning for photography. It's fastest finger first!~~ Update: turns out that no extra slots were opened. Curse you, you who took my photography slot! Though it probably isn't your fault. MAY MAGGOTS BREED ON YOUR HEAD!! Oh boy, I sure hope that curse doesn't make a full circle. I am now taking TWO analysis courses. Mindfucks galore! Not that I particularly mind. Doesn't adhere to me.

Tweaking in progress.

2006-03-30T02:59:00.000+08:00

Tweaking in progress.

Tweaking in progress.

Tweaking in progress.

A man was wandering around a fairground and he happened to see a fortune teller's tent. Thinking it would be good for a laugh, he went inside and sat down. "Ah....." said the woman as she gazed into her crystal ball. "I see you are the father of two children." "That's what you think," said the man scornfully. "I'm the father of THREE children."

The woman grinned and said, "That's what YOU think!"

Tweaking in progress.

Tweaking in progress.

Tweaking in progress.

Tweaking in progress.

This very night.

2006-03-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

She came, she saw, .... she's gone.

Panasonic first SLR camera, DMV-L1 released

2006-03-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

.. in addition to allowing the lens to be swapped, it allows easy manual focussing.

Panasonic’s 7.5megapixel Lumix DMV-L1 goes further in having a manual dial to control shutter speed and an aperture ring on the standard lens - a D Vario-Elmarit 14-50mm zoom.

Like all Panasonic camera lenses, this is made by Leica..

OLE! I SAY! OLE!!! Long awaited! This just might be on the top of my list, together with the Canon 350D/Digital Rebel XT.
The latter looks way swankier though.. *vain look*

how it looks:
http://vnuuk.typepad.com/.shared/image.html?/photos/uncategorized/l1rslant.jpg
&
http://www.dpreview.com/reviews/CanonEOS350D/Images/frontview.jpg

You look so different, you're all the same.

2006-03-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

A wee bit of a funk rising up.. Monday blues I suppose.

Felt bloody skint after discovering I had a measly 5 bucks in my possession. Swiped the wrong note off the table! Had brekkie and lunch at a buffet. Provided free.

Should be going on a second holiday, buzz if you wanna tag along..

Thumper, first week of April?
Bro's birthday is on the 6th. Must.. Remember.. To.. Buy.. Prezzie..

And I swear I deserve a fucking hell lot more of credit than what you care to give me.

Geek post : Firefox 2.0 alpha released!

2006-03-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

The Firefox 2.0 "Bon Echo" version will be released on tuesday. (I think.)

New features reportedly include:
- A close button on each tab a la IE7 (which I detest)
- Multiple bookmarks in different folders
- A tab close undo

Oh just check it out here.
http://wiki.mozilla.org/Firefox2/Features

Some have already managed to get to Bon Echo before it's release date, according to digg.com.

I think I'll hold out a coupla days more just in case they make changes. Die, IE, DIE!

This is for the two. (bruises on my thigh).

2006-03-18T16:03:00.000+08:00

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how..

And just maybe someday, things will go my way.

2006-03-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

Fling, (flang), flung.

Aiya just let me mope without reason for a day.

Taxing.

2006-03-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

Current location: Tanglin, Singapore
Temperature difference: + 23 degrees celcius

Most commonly used phrase: ngor mm sek teng ah..
Most commonly heard phrase: leng zai, yao mo lighter ah?
Most commonly drank liquid: hot cocoa from starbucks
Most pissing thing about Singapore: alcohol and tobacco taxes

Most wanted thing now: a little something ; ) and sleep.

Honkies

2006-03-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

In a HK juice shop next to the hotel, ordering food is a total pain because I never seem to be able to read the menu.. Computer controls appear in friggin chinese. Damn. Not much diff in the weather, it's actually Singapore on a rainy day. I just hope to see my room still intact when I return ; )

A certain someone called home and blatantly asked for me when she was in the know! *stifles sniggers*

abbreviations.

2006-03-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

Impromptu trip. lol. afk, will brb in.. 6/7 days, unfortunately.
Please pray for a non-crashing flight, cold weather, and that those damned chinamen won't spit all over me as I visit mickey and winnie. (n chip 'n' dale.)
Will have pics showcasing my extremely unkempt hair.. oh and the food of course.

Thks 4 e call, I had your naggings playing in my head when I woke. =P

To Sir, With Love.

2006-03-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

This will be the last update for some time to come. I can't quite be arsed to keep this up, so.. future posts are gonna be a tad bit geekish, save for picture postings. Nothing personal though, until my life gets a little more interesting.. Tagboard is still in use! Please use the guestbook though, I prefer it so much more. In saying that, this is probably gonna be a sticky post.

Status quo, as of March 1st, 2006.

Spelling's been going downhill, though not to the extent of needing a spell check every other second. Phew! Dabbling quite a bit into photoshop extensions as well, probably way too much for the exam stretch.. Have no fear though, I shall persevere!

Been discovering great uses for tripods, borrowing cameras costing two grand at the very least (I am not worthy), tossing dumbbells around on occasion, trying to suppress cravings for The L Word, testing out firefox extensions, refusing to cut or comb my hair, or to fix up a somewhat monocoloured jigsaw, impulsively splurging on a belt, finalizing tattoo designs, scrounging up the cash needed, planning for a short getaway, and that's way too many commas in a sentence.

Have been extremely displeased with how certain matters been handled. Picked up mixed signals and such, but everything's more or less cleared up right now. Turns out those ostensibly mixed signals were misleading ones instead. That's all good then, even when supposing I'll never get the whole story. The maturity level's... way down there though. Nuh uh, I'm shaking my head in disgust. Booty calls are good though, I just need to get my mind into it..
As Take It Easy (Love Nothing) by Bright Eyes implies, thanks for the 'growth spurt', now the world's gotten cheaper in my eyes. Oh the mistakes made over women.. *rubs neck ruefully*

Me walking out of a bio test some time back with a lecture mate: "Hey don't look at me, it just didn't occur to me to study for it!"
Just two more days babe, it's home free for us!
(And someone had better invite me to Thumper this month..)

Au Revoir, chums! Au Revoir!

Don't look back in anger. (I'm trying hard not to.)

2006-02-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

Women.
It's gonna turn out to be one of those mistakes you make in life.. (The ones where you bang your head on the wall screaming "Moron! I'm an absolute moron!") Right. Breathe, breathe. Live and learn. Albeit sorely.

I want someone who brings out the best in me..(Could you turn gay once more? Please? No? Damn.)

Instead of "Why haven't you walked the hamster?!?!?!?", say "Have you walked the hamster?". Where upon I'd go.. "Oops" and give a quick sheepish smile before scuttling away in search of the leash. Man, I hate accusatory natures.

This uncharateristic flurry of thoughts stem from studying for the finals.

2006-02-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

Paper sucked. Bad. I wonder if it's actually possible to knock yourself out?
Smokes didn't help all that much. Give me weed! Someone! Anyone!

Right now, you could actually tattoo my damned noggin and I won't feel a thing.

Oh, whaddya know. Chicken soup calms frazzled nerves. There won't be any need to be inebriated after four pots of it then.

of NYP sex scandal

2006-02-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

I reserve my comments, simply cause I'm no saint either. Yes, I have the video ; ) Apparently there are 3 more to be found.
What actually bugs me is how the spotlight is shone solely on the girl instead of both parties.

Lesson to be learnt: old fashioned camcorders work best. They carry sound, and they don't get stolen.

Goddamn fishies

2006-02-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

Just what is wrong with the world? I see koi tattoos everywhere. Online, posters, tattoo design books.. EVERYWHERE!
I understand the significance of the fish but honestly.. This goes way too much for my liking. Ugh. Striking that off my menu for a week at the very least.

Edit:

"Fat people hurt less when they get inked." AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Retrospection, introspection, pretrospection?

2006-02-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

Can't move on..but I can't go home
And I'm not so strong..
But I'll make my way to the place I know
Inside my heart where I used to go to get brave
And I don't want to be lost anymore.

Gotta find my way back home.

I don't know where I go - but I know I drive alone.
I terribly miss you more than you'll ever know
You've got to come back somehow
You've got to come back somehow

And..

Sometimes I think best it left in the memory
It's better kept inside and left for good
But looking back each time they tried to tell me
Well something's gotta go wrong
'Cause I'm feelin way too damn good

Rewind, replay.

2006-02-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

She's going to the states. Arrrghhh, this cannot be happening.
ScrewSkewFuckAhDammit*bleep*Diuuu!!!

That makes 3 out of 4 of them moving to the US of A.

Off to take a cold shower.

You would never know she's from med school

2006-02-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

Clara, on an iPod video

clare* Craaaaaaashed. Goodbye, Yaris.]] says (11:20 PM):
it does NOT cost 15k!

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:20 PM):
it can store 15k SONGA

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:20 PM):
*SONGS

clare* Craaaaaaashed. Goodbye, Yaris.]] says (11:20 PM):
OHHH

clare* Craaaaaaashed. Goodbye, Yaris.]] says (11:20 PM):
shhh. dont tell anyone i said that.

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:20 PM):
Bribe me ; )

BAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!! The deal obviously fell through ; )

And then Zhi comes along..

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; i want a girlfriend. says (11:38 PM):
please tell ur clare that she is just as stupid as our clare

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; i want a girlfriend. says (11:38 PM):
our clare thinks u can take picture with a n-gage

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; i want a girlfriend. says (11:38 PM):
conclusion all clares are stupid

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:38 PM):
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA OMFG ZHI

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:39 PM):
THEY ARE THE SAME CLARES

MP3s wanted! Please send the shit now! says (11:39 PM):
BAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

Because math is a bugger

2006-02-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

4 jobs you've had in your life
- Epson, administrative shit
- Jasons, yummy food shit
- Human, student
- Do repeated orders to clean my room up count?

4 movies you could watch over and over
- Love actually
- Mulan
I don't exactly rewatch movies.

4 TV shows you love(d) to watch
- The Amazing Race
- Temptation Island
- Tom and Jerry
- T.....?

4 places you've lived
- __ Burgundy Crescent (We still own this, but it has travel inconveniences.)
- A bungalow in the marshlands of woodlands, (six months)
- A rented service apartment, Sunshine Coast, Australia (one year +)
- ______ (insert current address here) , 5 mins from the first location

4 places you've been on vacation to
- Bangkok, Thailand
- Hongkong
- Barcelona, Spain
- Auckland/Christchurch/Rotorua, New Zealand

4 places you would rather be
- The Carribean/Madagascar
- Any good theme park (Adrenaline rush, yeeehaaaaawoohoo!)
- The land of Oz
- Vancouver? HK?

4 of your favourite foods
- Macaroni gratin (this is just a craze people, bear with me)
- Mom's cooking
- Lamb chop with mint sauce
- Piping hot ebi tempura with ramen in freezing climates

4 websites you visit daily
- Well it most likely isn't yours.

Here's to the night.

2006-02-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Not so sure I ever want to stop growing up. The epiphany's orgasmic whenever one of life's little secrets are uncovered and I can safely say now for one of them; Verily verily, I see the light.

I have so much to offer, so much to give. So much obstinance, so much jealousy. So much anger, so much hatred, so much so I'd never give you up without a fight. Not so selfish that I wouldn't share my fire.

So here's to the night I'd feel alive ;

Yeah I'm lounging at a bus stop baby.

New toy!

2006-02-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

New toy!!! (Mine's the black/silver, not white/brown)

It sure cost me though, I'm missing an arm. Financial status: I'm worth as much as hell notes are =P

Here's a mini review to bore you:
Refrained from waiting a little longer for the N91; my new buddy's the N70. Because I happen to hate flip-n-slide phones, this one looking like a brick works out just great for me. The N91 would've doubled up as an MP3 player, and it sure looked droolsome when the keypad was hidden from view.. BUT. I kept to my resolution of not getting anything close to an MP3 player though.. (My overactive brain needs regular excursions on bus rides)
It's great functions wise, although the keypad and new hotkeys need some getting used to. Loading time for applications aren't up to my expectations either, (Laggy Laggy), must be all overloaded with shit. The dual 2MP cameras make up a little for it!

Right. I hope no one went through that paragraph coz it's actually for my benefit =P

Important: My old number is still in use! I have a new one though, will notify y'all personally.
Note: Use either one to contact me, but only my new number will be showing when I call/text. So save it to minimize confusion eh?

Overheard (1)

2006-02-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

Y: Eh, so how's the guy at the table just now?

H: Oh the one in the astronomy club that asked X for her number!

Y: Yah so cool, next time can be an astronaut.

Me: ????!!11!!!one!!!1!!1one
(I remained silent for the sake of preserving my sanity =P )

Synchronization.

2006-02-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

A text message received earlier in the day from D kindly reminded me that 16 months (and technically one week) ago, the first tentative step was taken on a long, arduous, tenacious, ... , ... , journey.

What I failed to realize was that this meant uprooting what stringy roots my stable ground of singlehood had. Life was then co-owned by another person called the girlfriend. Some/Much molding takes place. Automatically bypassing steakhouses, stopping at the section with frozen food at the supermart, taking up to an hour at the fitting rooms per store.. (The horror!! When I used to clock a max of ten minutes) I now profess to be a great shopping partner to friends.

Being in a relationship meant complementing each other. Oh just who am I kidding? It meant expecting that when someone says "jump", the other doesn't ask "how high?" but instead leaps in the direction expected of her, without it being afore mentioned. High expectations indeed, especially trying whenever me and whoever-I-was-seeing-at-any-particular-period-of-time had personalities that stood at two different ends of the spectrum.

It is true that once you've fallen, you keep falling. Dependency issues. To this date there are only two people whom I know of that truly embrace being single. (And my ex is one of them. Yeah harharhar, I await all snide remarks)

Through good, bad and worse times, I miss synchronization. Could be the period of adjustment before the memory becomes a blur. It's great being single and all, but to share the chore of changing the sheets with a special someone, it's something else. Of course a good balance between friends and ~~foe~~ girlfriend has to be struck, but that's just what I think. Agree?

I've placed a bet on myself with D, stating I'd remain single for the period of one year! Easy peasy. Who would make things difficult for me? Hmm..
(PS. I am intent on winning it)

chopstick kungfu

2006-02-05T15:41:00.000+08:00

I am absolutely depressed ; I've seemingly erased from my memory the how-to of using chopsticks! Now it always looks as though I twist my hand into a grotesque position just to make it work. Which is, terribly unfortunately, true.

Follow these kungfu steps! Clip noodles with chopsticks, twist your hand 90 - 180 degrees. The noodles are hung over the sticks! Now stuff them into your mouth!

I am nothing less than a genius.

Hi! Turn round!

2006-02-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm filled to the brim with endorphins! Yeah baby! I could pass out right now.

YH, there's nuffink here. ; )

Bowled over.

2006-02-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

I got a call today. Teehee!

You've gotten her approval. Wow.

And you've never looked better.... Mm. ; )

edit, 12.38pm:
Closure's (of some sorts, if any at all) something that should never be searched for.
It only takes a moment of epiphany..

Oasis! I'll have photos to spite you babe! ; )

nil

2006-01-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

First sign you've been watching way too much movie rental/downloads:
When you miss a bit on tv and reach for the mouse to hit the rewind.

Thanks for The Usual Suspects babe! More please! (heh heh)

Coyote ugly? Nah!

2006-01-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

I saw a Hawt Gurl at my reunion dinner!!!! *cues coyote howl*
edit: A dinner that cost EIGHT HUNDRED AND FIFTEEN BUCKS and it didn't taste all that good. FUCK!!

We had it held in a restaurant for the first time ever, all them lazy people. Half the table (grannie included) donned black! And they had their first lou yu sheng or however you call that thingey-ma-jig.
It's great not to be superstitious or excessively traditional.

M called at the grand hour of 4 in the morning yesterday. Apparently I carried out the conversation quite lucidly! Phenomenal internal strength. I returned the call this afternoon just to make sure it wasn't a dream. On hindsight, I should simply have checked the call records. Oh well.

Linguistic talent.

2006-01-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

So we don't agree on any fucking thing in the world. And it IS impossible to spend a few hours with a friend enjoying good music after facing deadlines a month. And they call it easy listening. Jeez. Slip me off the chain already.
I think I just might develop meningitis very soon.

Totally unrelated:

Vaffunculo - Fuck you, Italian

Merda - Shit, Spanish

Machikne - Motherfucker, Nepalese

Joder - Fuck, German (I'm not too sure bout this one)

~~Kaninachaonabehcheebye~~ Kaninabehchaocheebye! (I stand corrected!) - Who cares what it means, Hokkien ; )

added:
Mok sok means something in Thai, if my classmates aren't wrong..

There are loads more I know of, i.e. "come suck me" in French and Thai, but it seems to have slipped my mind. Not that it's a bad thing eh? Contributions, any?

Sunkissed

2006-01-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

Mmm... A vacation with the sun, sand, sea and no humidity!
Company's important too ; )
*twiddles thumbs*

Enough sad shit, here's the wacky stuff !

2006-01-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!! I had this spritely and happy post going on and firefox just HAD shut down on me.

Anyhow, here's a truncated version:

Skipped math and thermo lectures as I stayed up through the night for some obscure reason I cannot fathom at the moment. But I had an awesome day at school.

The bio test rendered all our voices so hoarse that us all had to go for a round of ice creams before the next lecture. It was a game of one member of each class reading a question, then passing the answer down to the last person in the line. He would then scribble it down and dash to hand it up for a point. The highlight was when this insane laydee fought her way to the front and provocatively thrust her answers into Mr Gay I-Have-My-Right-Ear-Pierced Guy's chest! WAHAHHAHAHAHA!! The way he covered his man boobs were absolutely classic, I swear. Of course the entire theatre was in an uproar after that ; )

Down to the ice creams! The boys couldn't get this rack of ice creams out so they could get to the ones at the bottom (A much nicer flavor you see) and me being the genius that I normally am, YANKED the entire rack out and held it aloft like a prized trophy. And there yonder came an agitated female voice : OI!!!! YOU TRYING TO MELT ALL MY ICE CLEAMS AH!??
I have to confess I did not catch a single word of it as it was in chinese/hokkien, much less realize it was directed at me. =( But after some quick translations and nudges by my mate.. We all paid up hurriedly and jammed the rack back whilst engulfed in wild laughter. Well it's a "you had to be there" kinda catch, but it sure tickled us for two whole hours. HOHO!

And I have a dinner date right now, so if you'll excuse me.. I have to run!

Au Revoir.

2006-01-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

Because you don't want/need it that much.

Au revoir.

All it needs is time.

All downhill from here.

2006-01-23T06:51:00.000+08:00

Seeing this just breaks.. *laughs*

I think my hormones are gonna fuck up soon. Damn.

Product of a sleepless night.

2006-01-23T05:05:00.000+08:00

1.How tall are you barefoot?
165+ cm. 5'5. Which ever you prefer.

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
Nah.

3. Do you own a gun?
Wish I did ; )

4. Rehab?
I'm clean

5. Would you ever "do" someone in their parent's bed?
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA!! did.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Goes damned well with cheese.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
Do I have one?

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Hot chocolate.

9. Do you do push-ups?
I can....

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
I'm clean. Really.

11. Are you vegan?
Mmm.. Steak..

12. Do you like painkillers?
When migraines call, yes

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
N.R.A. (not really applicable)

14. Do you own a knife?
Yeap

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
There are people who swear I do

16. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings?
I'll find out soon =P

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
a) Fuck, I'm running low on cash.
b) It's 5am and I'm not asleep
c) I need to pee.

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:
a) a bottle of yakult
b) dinner
c) the papers

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
All juices (choose any five)

20. What time did you wake up today?
Uhh.. I haven't slept

21. Current hair?
Multi-coloured.

22. Current worry?
I NEED TO GET A GRADE FOR BIO DAMMIT

23. Current hate?
Lizards

24. Favorite place to be?
In the crook of someone's arm.

25. Least favorite place to be?
Any place with fragrances.

26. Where would you like to go?
Overseas, anywhere without jungle terrain

27. What do you wear when you go to sleep?
Uhh..a comfy shirt and boxers

28. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
Jetsetting. (At least I hope I will be)

29. Do you burn or tan?
Nei-fucking-ther.

30. Last thing you ate?
Seafood casserole

31. Would you be a pirate?
Arrrrrr... Aye!

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
Not too long ago, heh

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I daydream whilst taking a bath.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
I was a secure kid

35. What's in your pockets right now?
Nuffink =(

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Them airport photos, oh the PHOTOS!!

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
Carebears?

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
My ear bled =(

39. What are your dreams like?
Violent. And I can fly.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Two

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Oh Ho I still value my life.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
The one sitting in my wardrobe right now. Oh look there he is!

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Don't know, don't care

44. Do you wish on stars?
Nah.. They're bits of rock that look pretty.

45. What is your favorite book?
Heh, I pretty much read anything save for trashy shite

46. What is your favorite candy?
Anything chocolate. (I say it's counted as candy)

47. What song do you want played at your wedding?
Something that has the words "losing my freedom" in it's lyrics

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Something from J.E.W.'s futures album. (It's just a current favourite)
Oh oh, The Greatest View by Silverchair works as well.

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
I suffer from amnesia.

High on helium

2006-01-22T03:35:00.000+08:00

My stomach feels bloated with the wind I digested whilst guffawing earlier in the day! And no, I don't care how incoherent that sounds because I am about to fall asleep smack on the keypad. But oh grief, don't you think everything (photos very much included) was hilarious?
Thanks: HC, Sher, YH, Chris, Jean

Hello YH, you snoop! I love you! ; )
(HAHAHAHAHA KILL ME NOW)

The cheese and mush.

2006-01-21T03:34:00.000+08:00

Lifehouse - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Freshly Baked

2006-01-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

I'm hauling this blog somewhere else. Oh, alright.. only heavier posts that is.
Access + address will be given personally.

No worries, updates will be continued here;
Proof that somewhere ~~out there~~ on this tiny tropical island, I'm alive and kicking.
(Not like y'all would wanna know that eh? =P )

Beta

2006-01-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

I am beta testing the all new Windows Live Messenger.
Bill Gates finally smartens up eh? Works damned great.
Solely by invites ; )
(It's a cue for you to start bribing me, in case I get one)

West Virginia, Mountain Momma

2006-01-15T16:27:00.000+08:00

4am, January 15th..
Source of disturbance: two unearthly creatures residing five minutes from each other
"BAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA"

Reason: Exotic Names (link, click!)

However, first comment takes the cake;

" i remembered one of my colleagues (i'm working part time) telling me about a girl from China who started work in my colleague's previous company.
her name is VAGINA. the boss thought she may have heard it wrong coz of the heavy Chinese accent. so she asked "VIRGINIA?"
"No, VA-GI-NA. spelled as v-a-g-i-n-a..."
the boss nearly pengsan! hahaha! and suggested that everybody called her gina, but the girl insisted that she be called VAGINA, and she's damn proud of it.. "

Chris and HC (credit for the below), may you dream of the most awesome prawnie tonight: Me!

The indispensable bolster I snuff my nose into is missing!!

DAYUM I'M PSYCHIC !

2006-01-12T02:01:00.000+08:00

RACHE _ ; I live in a bubble. Burst it. says:
i'll make it up to you?

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; 如果. 爱 the walk in the rain. says:
HAHA

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; 如果. 爱 the walk in the rain. says:
okie

RACHE _ ; I live in a bubble. Burst it. says:
err food, not diamonds

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; 如果. 爱 the walk in the rain. says:
i want tiff n co

RACHE _ ; I live in a bubble. Burst it. says:
HA

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; 如果. 爱 the walk in the rain. says:
-.-''

RACHE _ ; I live in a bubble. Burst it. says:
HA

z h i __ ]] ingenue__; 如果. 爱 the walk in the rain. says:
damn

Just so you know.

2006-01-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

I've almost never missed anything.

The text messages. The little nibble you give your lower lip when you've just told a lie. That not-so-smooth way you try to slide your phone away from my hands. The small sigh of relief and the gradual loosening of your shoulders when I decide to spare myself the torture. The msn conversations you try to hide. The way you avert your eyes. Those thinking pauses.
And the goddamn phone call on the bus. How you held my hand right after it.

Maybe I'm being oversensitive, but I hardly am.

Just that I lie way better than you'd ever know.

Ashdown Forest, 100 Aker Wood West, in a hallow Walnut Tree.

2006-01-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

Checking new albums out and chanced on two by the same artist, released in the same year. Been a long time since I've heard your voice, Mr. Conor Bright Eyes Oberst.

BB says: " Oooh.. Good choice. " =)
I'm shamelessly ripping some songs off the net. I'll get the discs soon! Thanks saddle creek!

And simply because I feel like it :

I need some meaning I can memorize. The kind I have always seems to slip my mind..
We stumble into the room and kick off our shoes. It's always been this way with you, you who never allowed bare feet outside of your room. An hour on the clock.. or two. Snuggle under the duvet. I brace myself for the words. "Mmm..Thanks." Sure. A smile plays on your lips. I keep a straight face. Acknowledgement. Grab some juice and my bag. One sock is missing. You're asleep. No matter...I have your keys.
Lather, rinse, repeat.

Something vague that we're not seeing. Something more like a feeling.
I could never look you in the eye. That's all changed now. You turned to me in the train, one of those long rides. "You're pretty insane huh? Morning classes and you're on the wrong side on the island." So stop smirking! Telepathic conversations and little jolts. You taught me what it was like to live. I've never missed a single signal. Even with the manner in which you delivered your farewell speech, I knew I should have probed. Nah.. You deserve my respect.
Concerts. I sat through chinese dances hoping you'd be there. Your school events. Frantic messages and calls.
Are you here? (I hear the same background sounds through the phone..)
Yeah, up there. (You're not lying. Never did.)
Where??
UP there.
WHERE?!?
I cursed and swore every passing second. Oh wait. Phone in hand, your eyes scan the crowd. I spot you. A hug. Ecstasy...
A line allows progress, a circle does not.
You drew the line. We talk nowadays. So what do you look for? I grin.
Preferably 1.7 meters? (Damn 5 cm short..)
Must be able to take my random weirdness. (I match you in that)
Hmm.. Nice eyes? Sparkly eyes? I see a conscious smile there. (You'd always see me with them.. Put the colour back into them I'd say.)
I think it depends on the attraction. Whaddya say?
"Yeah..."
You run out of words and I hear the guitar. I wouldn't have it any other way.

First with your hands, then with your mouth. Downpours of sweat, damp cotton clouds. I was a fool, you were my friend. We made it happen.
You stood by the window. Gazing.. Smiling at our reflection. It was as though you willed my hands forward. A tentative touch. A firmer grip. I was contented.
23 seconds. You pull me in. We break apart. I taste my lips. A hug goodnight. I find myself at your doorstep again.
Now we speak with ruined tongues and the words we say aren't meant for anyone
Words of spite. Anger. It's our pride that's been wounded. At times I wonder who the condescending one actually is. But the passion... Raw.
Each feature improved, each moment refined, and eyes like a showroom..
All the advice, not unkindly no doubt. A tiger never changes its stripes. I hope to discover yours are painted on. Just a minute whilst I rid myself of these spots. I've changed. Would you take me as I am? Oh.. Right.. We've got a long way to go.

This is where I take a cold shower.

Everything is as its always been, this never happened
Don't take it too bad it's nothing you did
Just once something dies, you can't make it live
You're a beautiful boy, you're a sweet little kid
But I am a woman

Now I do as I please and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt but it won't be me
Should probably feel cheap, but I'll just feel free
And a little bit empty
No it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments, we'll always agree
And I'll try and be kind, when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy

Blame it on dependancy issues and good humour.

2006-01-04T09:06:00.000+08:00

So here I am! Have an exam at 11, ~~gonna fail bio~~ GOD FORBID

In the midst of meddling with this shiet, possibly add a status column... and well we'll see.

But here are the conditions to being my boy/girlfriend (somewhat) :

Rapport.
A sense of humour.
A little more discipline than I have (which doesn't amount to much anyway)
Nice (smelling) hair.
Buy me a more professional camera Preferably Canon, thank you. I'm tired of modifying mine.
Spontaneity.
Not be on a diet. (unless you weigh above 65kg)
Be musically inclined.
EYES. I need to see them.

Now. If you meet the requirements, leave a message after the beep. Incidentally, all it takes to get me is the first point. And the camera. The others would be very much welcome though ; ) And read the title.
I need to start cramming now. Updates/edits..soon?

edit:

Said I wouldn't talk mention 2005. But something triggered it so here I am, wasting finger power. Too lazy to start a new post.

2005. It's past, and all my past's a blob. I'm not sorry to see the back of it.

I fell out of love. Ate snails. Tarred my lungs up and gained a small belly. Fought with friends. Hated. Learnt to distrust, to be cynical. Broke my cupboard door. Started tertiary education. Had dependancy issues. Still have them. (hence the above)

But a clean slate's been presented in the form of a new year and it would not bode well if I rejected it. Special thanks to those who bothered to listen, to those who cared not for the sake of gossip. (Trust me, it happens.) Kiss my ass, you fucking loser.

At this point, the mind's working way faster than the fingers are.. So there you have it. A paragraph of thoughts.

Auld Lang Syne

2006-01-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

I will not blog about 2005.

I welcome 2006.

Mourn.

2005-12-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

My fave couple broke up yesterday.

Mourn.
For I too, carry a heavy heart. It will lighten.

Shuffle along the brightly lit streets with both hands carelessly stuffed in my pockets... There is not a star in sight.

If unable to comprehend, let it go. These are, after all, the skid marks in my life.

As I always say, condemnant quod non intellegunt.
They condemn because they do not understand.

Interestingly Gross : The chunk of earwax that just fell from my ear.

2005-12-28T02:24:00.000+08:00

So. Christmastime was spent sitting idly in a dingy chair, donning a jingly Santa hat and digesting wine and meat.

Arrived at my other house with the pot of mashed potato still intact. (Tis a miracle.) Built a model motorbike for my cousin whilst watching Mulan. " I am the powerful, the pleasurable, the indestructible Mushu! " Heh heh. I digress. Being the bum I am, felt like a snooze after the show. Trudged upstairs... MY ROOF HAD BEEN LEAKING!!!! Damn my rug smelt like fermented fish, cow dung, and my brother's smelly shoes all rolled into one.

The idea of sleep tossed out of my mind, the next best thing would be to pay a rare visit to my dog. Big mistake. Terry behaves like it hasn't seen a soul for years! What's the meaning of hurling itself at me huh? It's become pudgier too... HA. Someone has been neglecting her duties.
Time to adjourn to couz' house. Ooh. Heavenly food.............mmm...yadayada. And I found my lap laden with boxes of Belgian chocolates while the kids unwrapped barbie dolls and toy trucks. AND LEGO!!!!!

Ah the price to pay for being the first born by a whole five years. Yeah never send your daughter to a girls' school unless it's Raffles.. Set the curfew at 8pm lest she comes home at three in the morn.. The list goes on. *snickers* In short, ensure she doesn't turn out like me.

At least the chocolates cost 50 bucks per box.

So much warmth I have this festive season, not many people whom I wanna share it with. What a waste.

Angels in America.

2005-12-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah I'm currently watching a feed of Angels in America over the net, and it's pretty staggered. Will try to get my hands on this dvd.. somehow. Al Pacino's in it!

Awesome quotes, (not quite right for christmas though)

"Look. Garlic. A Mirror. Holy Water. A Crucifix. Fuck off! Get the fuck out of my room! Go!"

"You know what your problem is, Louis? Your problem is you're so full of piping hot crap the mention of your name draws flies." (HAHA!!)

Roy Cohn (Al Pacino), on his heart: "Tough little muscle. Never bleeds."

"We have reached a verdict, your honor. This man's heart is deficient. He loves, but his love is worth nothing."

Late. Gotta run!

Filthy hands.

2005-12-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

Attributing all feelings to PMS.

God how I hate this crave.. for someone to be beside/in me right now. Not necessarily in a physical sense, but just the knowledge of it... breathes life into my soul.
Currently stumbling along the road of self-dependancy.
Feeling woozy. One too many sleeping pills.. heh. (No, I'm not making this a habit.) It was a desperate attempt to knock myself out so I could finally get some shuteye.

Will do anything to prevent the quarter-life crisis from rearing it's ugly head. (That's mid-life if I happen to die young eh?)

2005-12-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHOMFGWTFHAHAHAHHAHA

MY MUM DREAMT OF MY DAD WEARING HER QI PAO AND SHE WAS HOWLING AT HIM TO TAKE IT OFF

HAHAHAHHAHAHHA WHAT A WARPED MIND!!!!! oh well, it's all in the season's spirit =P

BEER! Helping ugly people have sex since 1756.

2005-12-19T02:15:00.000+08:00

My Christmas shopping is virtually undone. Don't get me anything cos I won't be reciprocating! A huge pack of coffee-mate's for you though, buddy ; )
(Psst. Thanks for the.. oh! The bell broke off and I'm gonna get some glue tomorrow.)
Giving next week an incommunicado status. Alright, so I exaggerate.
Chem E-car's proposal is due tomorrow (read: today) at 5pm. Uhh.. just a minute. Who's in my team?

It is my current understanding that thoughts never seem to flow when my hair's wet.
And all I want for Christmas is for all earwigs to be banished to the depths of my brother's smelly sock drawer. Plus.. ... ... ....

And I leave you with this site, you horny geeks ;
http://www.mydirtyipod.com/

Happy Holidays!

Adios, Motherfucker!

2005-12-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

Abso-fucking-lutely shit faced. Damn I had a couple of adios motherfucker cocktails and a few more random shots. Lesson learnt, never mix a mixture with a mixture. Ha! See if I keep to that.
Drumming was awesome fun. Tried my hand at the guitar but uhh.. failed miserably once again.
Attempting to get my report sent over the mail before the lights go out on me.
Uhh. Seeya!

Partake.

2005-12-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

The choices were there. You made mine.

AHA. I have snagged the last bottle of yakult!

Run out of smokes. Irate. Can't wait for the 14th.

Posts pending.

I am but a pile of lard.

2005-12-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

EXTREMELY UNFIT.
These two words must have been plastered across my forehead as I puffed up all those damn hills. Leisure cycling indeed! (A different route tomorrow?)
Remind me not to be a goddamned dope head and stop for a drink outside coffee express.

TO-DO:

Math Online. (one ton)
Math Tutorials. (ten tons)
Study for a thermo test.
Study for a bio test. (negligible)
Visit money changer.
A frenzied shopping spree for christmas prezzies.
Get all wanted CDs at HMV.
Await SHUWEI'S return.
EAT. Christmas dinners and night outs!
Start on the list.

Stranded.

2005-12-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

And I know,
Part of me says let it go,
That life happens for a reason..
..and I'm gonna try anything that just feels better.

Currently indulging in Santana collaborations, luvleh.

Trip on the 14th, and my school hasn't even ended.
OY stop tempting me with jackets!!

Hung by default.

2005-12-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

http://www.putfile.com/putfile-goodbye-to-singapore.php sez:
" For this reason, we are at this time terminating all service to users from Singapore. We shall be happy to restore service following any positive move from the government of Singapore towards abolition of hanging as an execution method.........which can take up to six minutes to painfully execute the victim"

WELL. I being a Singaporean am certainly not in favour of the death penalty, but see absolutely no way I can make my government abolish it.
And just FYI, hanging is not a painful process. Go read up on it. Just imagine being shot at by a firing squad. And they miss their target on your body. You fucking bleed to death.
Singapore IS already considering lethal injection to carry out the death penalty as they can find no one to actually pull the damn lever that sends someone straight to the grave.

That's just.. really juvenile.
But I won't be crass and say your service sucks anyway.

Ain't it the life?

2005-12-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

Everyone's having their christmas break right now. Poor widdle me. Will have to mug during christmastime.
Brynn's a biatch. Her exams end on the 19th, and my study break starts then. AGH AGH AGH I'm being incoherant here as my mind's currently filled with images from Need For Speed Underground 2.
Currently trashing her in minesweeper flags. ; )
Ain't it the life?

She just won!!!!!!?!!!??!! Go on, gloat whilst I sulk.
Stupid comeback queen. Piss on you!

This has turned into a live commentary.

DAMN HER ~~boobs~~ BOMBS!!!!
-
I err..., let her win.
-
The score is 26 - 8. Blatant mistakes, more proof that I can't quite multi-task.

update: (4th Dec)
I just got my maiden victory!

Where I set my thoughts to far off destinations.

2005-12-02T13:01:00.000+08:00

I am beginning to think I live in a communist era. Being born in the prestigious years before 1988 doesn't make you thou art almighty, nor does it allow you to read my mind. I emphasize, I know myself better than you know me. So look on the flipside before you judge me based on your side of the coin. Now how does that sound?
You think some cluck-a-doo coming back can get me down? Sure, for a day. But it has nothing to do with the present that I'm living in now. Some words will always have emotions attached to them, but that's as far as it really gets. I've let go of too many things for life to be like what it was before. When I say I've let go, I really have. Don't go around giving me mindfucks, all saying I harp on the same damn topic. It's really annoying.
Usually I can't be arsed, but I've just come to the realisation that I've skipped two tutorials today. Dammit.

I want to live where soul meets body.

2005-11-28T00:25:00.000+08:00

Thanks Murphy, I don't know how you came up with that piece of common sense but it sure applies to me right now.
Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong.

My spacebar isn't working very well right now after I plucked it out in an attempt to dig a grain of rice out from it's hiding place. I. Just. Had. To. I hope my valiant efforts at typing this entry doesn't go unnoticed as I stab at the malfunctioning key.

How I hate the sick feeling that grew in my stomach when my own father snuck my phone away, thinking I was asleep. Like a prized catch. Like an oompa-loompa discovering a cocoa bean. I don't even know if mother is trustworthy. Has she been for the past few years? Doubt I'd ever forget these words coming out of my mouth: "frankly, I don't care." It meant renouncing everything that I had tried to be, and inserting reality into every denial ever made.
If you must, I'm not exactly a black sheep. I'm coloured rainbow.

To you:
What started out as Mattel's inventions came to life as we indulged in Neopets, me teaching you tricks I thought everyone knew. And me refusing to take off my socks for some reason I've never known. That uncertainty. It was never certain. We never tested the waters, but instead dived straight into the deep end. Our differences were stark, I only recall one strong trait we had in common: stubbornness. But I struck myself blind; as long as you were with me, I was happy. It was that simple. And for five months, it was a whirl.

Then it all seeped away. Sucked into depths of hell that spewed forth sulfur and brimstone it was. I wonder if sex actually meant anything to you at all then, but I realised it stopped giving me that burning rush of adrenaline I used to feel. Perhaps it still did, perhaps it became overrated as familiarity of lust took over. Just like old times. Perhaps you put out the glow in my eyes.
(Please forgive me if i have been lacklustre in fulfilling any expectations)

I am never one person to hold back from voicing out my opinions but I've almost never did so with you. We'd end up spending the entire day debating on differing train of thoughts, on completely different wavelengths. Or maybe I just never did wanted to face up to the fact that we might not work out. Remember when we clashed?

Like Shakespeare said, star-crossed lovers. We just happened. Happened to. With a wistful glance, I wish I could have been that much more special but I got on the wrong train at the right platform. Not for the sake of being fucking cliche, but I think we both know what's best for us. Both. Now how would you describe a longing that will never be satiated?

Guess I've learnt a whole lot from this road trip on what seems like Route 66 to me. Made a couple of bad decisions, I accept them, no worries. I am such a person, somehow blessed with the ability to shield my own eyes from hypocritical ways of the world. Even to the extremities of finding humour in (almost) every situation. So what gave you (not you) the right to cast a stone at me? Now I hurl a rock right back at you (and again, not you).

Here's a thank you, Dionne.
I'm no longer in my childhood. I would never shirk from my responsibility unless you decided to relieve me of it. I won't ever see the point of eating natto, but I have learnt to eat more than one type of sushi, although I still think (insert any raw mash here) is virtually tasteless. My sweet tooth didn't help much because what you needed was a sweet tongue. Your practicality must have rubbed off onto me because recent gift buyings have reflected that change. You taught me to eat or be eaten. Thank you for the instant noodles with special seasoning that awaited me after drums. Thank you for the seafood don. I wouldn't refrain from touching you when you're at the electone; I could never resist. I remember blanching when you contaminated my soup bowl with chilli when I was halfway through my second plate of chicken rice. Sorry, I never learnt to eat runny yolks, let alone raw eggs. (I happened to eat at Ya Kun's the day I wrote bout it, you Moron.) I adore budak. I still love burying my nose in your hair, wanting to catch more than just a whiff of it being freshly washed. I would pinch it shut soon after, to avoid cringing as your perfume invades my sinuses.

For what I did not mention, it might not be that it was erased from memory. I am still a xiao ding dang who sits in a twuck. And just for the record, I'm still camera shy. Godspeed, baby princess.

This is the best I can do thus far, and I apologise. My right brain has been much neglected but trust me, I am still not working as hard as I should be in school.

Fort Minor - Believe Me

2005-11-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

I guess that this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now, believe me

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey, I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

I guess that this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now, believe me

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

I guess that this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now, believe me

2005-11-25T02:10:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO RAMBLE.
EARS.
WHERE ARE THOSE GODDAMN EARS!?!?!?!

FUCK.

My pet human.

2005-11-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

Do you remember girl..?
I know we haven't seen each other in awhile
but you will always be my.....

Right, please excuse me. My mind is racing right now.
It will pass.

tag, you're it!

2005-11-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

right. so i've been tagged (thanks brynn, random is good.), and shall spend the next 10 minutes of my existance typing out 5 random and weird things about me. HC says i'm a weird 'un but whatever's weird to you all might be normal to me! so here goes.

1. I have four pillows on my bed.

2. I never touch chicken wings/prawns/crabs/anything else that needs to be disected for that matter with my bare hands unless absolutely necessary.

3. I stopped wearing watches after a Guess one I had at the age of 11 refused to tick a second longer.

4. I used to think I'd fall in between the gaps of the steps on overhead bridges.

5. I have a toy dog named Scamper, who is slightly larger than the size of my fist. It was won at a christmas party when I was three and running a fever. It currently resides somewhere under extremely dusty conditions on one of my book cabinets.

that's done! and I'm supposed to pass this on.
aiight then. whoever's going for the trip across the causeway, be a sport!

I know for a fact that french visit my blog periodically. (bonjour! for whatever intricating reason are you here for?) Would you like to do this too?

bug.

2005-11-14T12:35:00.000+08:00

warning! warning! antiviral shields breached!
there's too many of them! we've got to retreat!
no way out! unless.... the neutraliser is used.
that would kill them! and... us...
kids, antibiotics are bad.
flee then! breed and multiply! for the day will come.. and evil forces will be eliminated forevar!

no wonder i felt kinda cold in lectures today.
oh well, an excuse to skip class ; )

petals around the roses.

2005-11-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

"The game can be used as an example of how different people look at the world differently, and how these different ways of looking can yield different answers....and he would always explain that the smarter you were, the longer it took to figure it out. "

http://crux.baker.edu/cdavis09/roses.html

i've finally figured out the answer after mulling over it for eons (my time).
uh okay, two days. much more time than what it takes for me to solve a tough sudoko.
does that mean i'm quite smart? ;)
and no, it has nothing to do with right or left brains shit.

hint:
hc says:
"the title of the pic says it all"

jeez. how we tend to comlicate things when in reality the answer is actually very simple indeed.

across the straits.

2005-11-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

the date is set. AT LAST!!

29th/30th Nov

keep it free bitches!
yay yay yay oh damn i haven't planned the itinerary.

Always Forever Now.

2005-11-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

The kitchen hollers, somehow complemented by a repetitive melody the desktop's been emitting. Twitch and sniff. My toast is burnt yet again. An aircraft roars overhead, somewhere amongst the stars. Lovely polluting mishmash on an awesomely lazy sunday night.
And I can barely discern this song blaring out from my speakers :
yet every single word's on the carousel in my head..

After The Fall -- The Fighter

Aquarius, Eyes so green like a treetop canopy

So curious, Lips are red like a hilltop forest fire

Oblivious, Voice so sweet like a songbird singing choir

So tell me now, what's in your head?

My patience hanging by a thread

Feel the lust, Tip the scales like a prison ball and chain

And take this trust, Once it's gone it can never be regained

'Cos it's a must, Truth be told all secrets see the light

Tell me why?

My patience hanging by a thread.

'Cause I am The Fighter

And you are the fists that bruise my face

This burning desire,

Her innocence is such a waste

Songs About Jane.

2005-11-05T17:48:00.000+08:00

Maroon 5 almost killed my leg nerves during drums.
lovely bass pedalling, god awesome.
and i'm loving it.

Maroon 5 - Tangled

I'm full of regret

For all the things that I have done and said

And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show

My face around here

Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

Would you ever turn your head and look

See if I'm gone

Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say to you

That you wanna hear

That you wanna know I think I should go

The things I've done are way too shameful

You're just an innocent

A helpless victim of a spiders web

And I'm an insect

Going after anything that I can get

So you better turn your head and run and don't look back

Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say to you

That you wanna hear

That you wanna know I think I should go

The things I've done are way too shameful

And I've done you so wrong

Treated you bad

Strung you along

Oh, shame on myself

I don't know how I got so tangled up